When It All Falls Down by Renee K

Author:Renee, K.
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2022-11-22T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter 9

Kavi

One Week Later

Glancing at the clock on the wall, it was a little after five already. I had been so damn busy today that I didn’t have time to eat lunch and my damn stomach was definitely paying for it now. I dialed my mom up to let her know that I would be there to get Aries no later than 6:30.

“Hey, son,” she greeted.

“Hey, ma. I’ll be there as soon as I close the shop. Do you need me to pick up anything?” I asked her that because my mom always waits until I’m in the driveway to tell me she needs something from the store.

“No, I’m alright. Aries and his Uncle Zay are about to go to the movies, and he wants to stay here with me this weekend,” she told me. I was fine with it because I could get some damn rest.

“Cool, I’m going home. Call me if you need me for anything, Ma.”

“We’re good; he has everything he needs here already. Try to get out this weekend and enjoy yourself, son. Kaviance, it’s time for you to start enjoying life, and maybe meet someone. It’s more to life than just raising your son and working. Oh, I tried calling Erian to give her the money you asked me to give her, and she hasn’t returned any of my calls.” Hearing my mom say that she couldn’t get Erian on the phone, had me thinking about the last time we were together.

“I’m sure she’ll call you back soon, Ma,” I told her. When we put my dad out, we didn’t think about Erian not having a job anymore, and all felt bad about that. I appreciated everything she did to help my mom out, so I definitely didn’t want to leave her hanging. I left twenty grand with my mom to give to her. I think I felt bad about her not having a job, but more so about the disagreement we had the night I ended things with her. I spoke to my mom for a few more minutes and ended the call with her. I knew it was time to go when she started talking about me moving on with my life.

Losing my wife damn near suffocated me for years. I couldn’t eat, sleep, or think without seeing her lifeless body or hearing those shots over and over again. Every fuckin’ day, I relived that moment, but coping with that loss gets a little more functional for me as time passes. I never expected to have to bury my wife at the age of twenty four. We were supposed to be living life, raising our son, and planning on having more kids together.

To be honest, I’m afraid to open up and love that way again. That fear of loss is a muthafucka! The moment I open up and give love a try again would be the moment I lose her over some shit I let happen. I’m not willing to take that chance. Losing another person I love would suck the life out of me.

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